(Prologue: There are so many wonderful moments that I could have shared here but just didn’t have time to do so. Now I still don’t have enough time, and it’s sad that this is another vent but I feel so strongly about this, so, here it is…)
Okay, let’s make this clear. I don’t mind jokes about being single, I even often make myself the subject of jokes or I can be self-deprecating, which makes people laugh. I, too, can laugh at myself, which I believe is healthy. But there are jokes that are humorous and there are jokes that aim to make people feel bad and sadly, I can tell the difference. Especially when you have been consistent on implying that I can’t be happy with my life just because I’m single, or just because I didn’t hook up with this or that guy. Yes, like you, I am on the look out for that one who could be the one, but our similarity stops there because I do live with a grateful and happy heart and I LIVE life besides, instead of waiting for just one person to make me feel alive. I also feel happy when a friend is happy, so I always wish those that are dear to me the best that life can possibly give them.
It puzzles me that you can’t seem to accept that I’m okay with what I have. It puzzles me that you seem to equate my being content with what I have with a numb and cold heart. If your mind works the way mine does, you should know that a heart that loves just because (and just about anyone worth loving), without expecting anything in return, is the warmest there could ever be. Oh, but maybe you don’t get that because our minds usually don’t go along parallel lines or even share the same plane, or haven’t you noticed that yet? And this might make you want to try harder to pull me down, but believe me when I say that I do live with love (as opposed to what you’ve been implying) because a lot of people, aside from members of my family, love me genuinely – yeah, I can tell genuine from not, it’s a talent. I hope you can be happy with your life, too and if you are, I hope you don’t feel the need to convince me, the same way that I don’t feel the need to convince you.
Again, I do not mind the jokes; it’s the intention and the disguised attack behind YOUR jokes that turn me off, that I do not understand. I have been a good and true friend to you as far as I know, I even got offended with someone on your behalf, and I am always ready to commiserate whenever you feel miserable; but your issues are simply non-issues to me personally, so just deal with that and get yourself a life.
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